Self esteem vs Soul esteem

It struck me yesterday morning whilst walking

It came to me in a question

What does high self esteem really mean with regards to the ego

Is it not a thing that builds our idea of ourselves higher

And therefore builds yet another useless extension to an imaginary house of cards

And if this is so

Does it follow that high/healthy self esteem is merely a construct and support system that the ego creates around itself

Like armour

If so

Then what is better than healthy self esteem – what should we be reaching for instead?

And by better I mean

What is real?

Tangible?

Worthwhile?

I cannot rest in ego because that is something that can be torn down and trampled

Where then can I rest my esteem

if not in me

Or I

The me that is still me when I’m asleep

My soul

How do I build…