Day: June 12, 2015

Bloggers-block, having no inspiration, real-life distractions or just a simple and utter case of  ‘the meh’…I think everyone who has a blog, knows all those feelings.

I, too, experience it every now and then. And it is not because I cannot find places to explore, pics to take and what not…no no, I am doing all that, but simply: cannot get myself to sit and craft a proper blogpost.
When I was new to blogging and the first times this happened to me, I was upset…worried and got anxious. As in : ‘zOMG, I have not blogged in three days…I will lose readers, people may think I stopped blogging!’

Danced all night at my friend Kiana’s 8th rezz-day party

After some years of blogging, in both real life and second life, I have come to terms with the occasional ‘meh’. It happens. It is okay. Nobody or their mesh-pets…

This is an open confession: I often wrestle with the desire to see my hopes and dreams fulfilled according to my timeline. I get the lack of trust in that confession. Really. But it’s true. I have a lack of patience that rises up when things don’t go according to my plan. This impatience quickly turns into discouragement.

In the middle of such discouragement, I came across a few passages of scripture that blew wind in my sails. This encouragement became my call to action.

While studying the life of David, the circumstances surrounding his anointing as king fell anew on me. He was young, an unlikely choice for king, and a shepherd. He was out tending sheep when Samuel anointed him as king.  He was doing ordinary work. Nothing glamorous about that.

As if that wasn’t enough, I ran into the story of Elisha. He was out plowing the field when Elijah…

To avoid pain.. To seek pleasure.. In a nutshell appears to be the motivation of men… Yet pain and pleasure die with the moment… When they past, you are still you..
And now what do you have.. A pleasure/pain seeking mechanism that lives and then dies.. Life’s so simple..
If so… Then why does your soul house so much pain.. Your yearning to connect, your feelings of aloneness.. Explain to me the purpose that serves…
Like a baby she attempts to make herself small.. Fetal-like she sits contorted taking up two seats along the train.. A litany of scars surface across her face.. She makes eye contact.. Attempts to connect.. Yet quickly retreats.. As if to hide the shame..
What is life for the broken man? A constant escape? Not a running to, because there is no end game.. It’s a constant running from– regret, resentment, remorse– all the actions…

Negative self-talk, a repeating record that keeps going and going. Some days I can mute it but other days it is up full blast. I’ve been really working hard this year on changing that tune. I’ve tried many times before but it just never really clicked.

In January, I noticed a shift in my tune so I thought I’d share some of those techniques I’ve been exploring that are working for me (most of the time):

• Gratitude. Every morning before I put my feet on the floor I say “Thank you for my comfortable bed and for the most magical day.”  I’ve always considered myself thankful but never thought to use it daily. This all started with a book called the “The Magic” by Ronda Bryne. I worked through each daily exercise and now many have become a daily habit.
• Affirmations. This is my latest self-help technique. I have about 5 on the go right now…

I heard the angels sing

a new Revelation.

Trumpets blasted,

Eternal flame for Peace

Matthew 24:31

“And he will send his angels with a loud trumpet call, and they will gather his elect from the four winds, from one end of the heavens to the other.”

Regard the
trees which
twirl their
tops above
your head —
feel the
breeze that
whirls inside
your breath —
open yourself
to the nature
of life.